Don't Be Scared, Be Forgiving.

Hey guys,

What a year it has been. A bumpy one…. yet still good.

In just a few days I will be moving to NYC for the summer. Working, eating late brunches and taking pictures of skyscrapers and lights with my bubble gum pink polaroid camera.

I’m excited. So excited at that.

But honestly my excitement has been put on the back burner.

Nothing is wrong. Actually…… everything is relatively good. And I think that’s why.

For the last couple of months I’ve had to make difficult decisions. Big girl decisions. And why they haven’t been easy, they’ve been more than necessary.

Guys, at some moments in life, you have to decide what’s good for you, what’s not good for you and what things might need a little more time before they can be yours.

Sometimes you have to be a big girl. And guess what, it’s scary. But so worth it.

I want you to know that as the seasons change, so will you. Be open to that. Be open to growing. Be open to letting new people into your heart but also to letting some people go.

But most importantly, be open to forgiveness.

Since I’ve been writing this blog, I’ve almost always stressed forgiveness to you guys in just about every post.

But to completely honest, I’ve never been more forgiving in my life than I feel right now.

Maybe that’s because I’ve grown, or maybe because I have an amazing support system. In all honesty though, it doesn’t really matter because I’m here and I’m happy.

Genuinely, intensely happy. Things are not perfect, but they aren’t terrible either.

I think its worth celebrating the days when your heart feels a little bit stronger than it did the day before. That’s a victory.

Right now as I type this, I’m laying on my couch and watching Sex and the City the movie. Now I know it doesn’t sound like much. But for me it’s perfect.

My challenge for you is to find what makes you intensely happy. For me it’s forgiveness. Forgiving others and forgiving myself.

So do me a favor. Take the summer by storm. Engulf yourself in the things that will challenge you to be better. Watch old Grey’s Anatomy episodes, eat bagels in bed, laugh until your stomach hurts, go out on dates etc..

And always remember that you’re worth it. You are valuable. And you are going to do great things in life.

Heartbreaks won’t kill you. Friendships come and go. People who are meant to be in your life will be there. What’s meant for you will be for you. Stay away from miserable people. Forgive yourself often. Create good karma. Conniving aint cute. Love yourself. School is rough but you’ll get through it. Boys can hurt your feelings but one day you’ll understand why he didn’t work out. You are amazing.

Never settle. See you in New York :)